Happy New Year - Belated as it maybe!!

Wow, quite unbelievable that its over a year since my last post.  I am happy to say that all has been well for me and i am at a good place.  I also wish to say that there is a new addition to the family.  A baby girl (beautiful is an understatement)by the names Courtney Vestal Waeni.  She was named after the well reknowned international gospel artist Vestal Goodman.

 

My eldest daughter is clearing high school this year and i am overly excited to get her into university next year.  Time truly does move fast.  It's just the other day she was a small girl and she's all grown.

 The family has grown and i am happy and thankful to God....

Breaking the silence

Wow, its been a while since i last post something here... well, life is just a handful for me...kids, work and school...this ain't easy for me and sometimes i get home so warn out i just take a quick shower and get into bed.  My daughter went to a boarding school and the small girl is still in a day school just within the estate.  Alot has happened since my last post.  Break ups to make ups to meeting new people.  I met a special person and we have gone out for the last three months.  I mean its all great and what have you but lately, i feel like we drawing apart... When we met he would call through out the day and weeks and so forth but that has changed with time... when we meet the spark is still there and all but after hat we don't talk until the next meeting.  Not like i never wish to call or even text in between but, i always don't want to come out as a nag.  I want to let things play themselves... I want him to be the one to call me since his work is more demanding and i don't want to interrupt him in between meetings and what have you... he claims to be madly in love with me but how comes i don't see that.  Probably i am too judgmental and quick to dismiss people and i so hope that it ain't the case here.  I love him and he has made me feel things no one else has managed to make me feel and i do sincerely hope that i am wrong here... that i am judging him too quick and he is into me just as i am into him... otherwise i don't like wasting my feelings where they aren't beeing reciprocated... i move on very fast regardless of the heartache..that i can deal with along the way hoping that he never comes back with a bucket full of stories....

Anyway, lets say that this was abit of a vent post and i feel much better now...

Chat

Today is a beautiful day.... I guess i should start with last evening first... Well, as usual my guy called at 9p.m. and we talked on phone for nearly two hours.  I was shocked when we were done to look at the watch and there it was, one hour forty five minutes... damn, what was is it all about?..  It's really good to meet someone who you can hold down a conversation with... some people in the first two minutes you are done and dont know what next to say to each other... Well, it's totally different now, and he never tires to call on a daily basis regardless of the expenses involved... Can't wait for him to travel back to Amsterdam on Monday or Tuesday... atleast the time difference there isn't as big as in the United States... and again i know that i will be seeing him pretty soon....  On other news, the ex girlfriend send a friend request on facebook and i LOL'd about it... I mean, what does she expect from me? that i would accept her friendship? i don't know her... what games is she into? well, she can shove her requests up there for all i care... i clicked reject and don't know her outside facebook...

Anyway, enough about him.  It's a Friday and the day looks so bright and promising so am hoping for good things to come out of it... Otherwise let me wish everyone a beautiful weekend....

Cheers....

Happy New year.......

Today is one of those days when you wake up feeling so vulnerable for unknown reasons.  Well, if i say unknown reasons probably i am trying to just be dramatic and such....Should i just say that i am craving for some loving? probably, but then what good would it do me?... I guess i was meant to be alone for the rest of my life... I came across this statement and it sure describes me: “I wish I knew how to love someone without killing myself. How to mend hearts without breaking my own. How to kiss and not create bruises.”
— Michelle K., Things I Wish I Knew How To Do"....

I am an hopeless romantic, that's for sure.  I end up hurting myself when i get involved with someone.  I honestly don't know how to get sexual with someone without getting my feelings involved.  Silly me i know but that's how i am.  In simpler terms, i don't know how to sleep with someone kill the urge.  I end up getting my feelings involved and that's how i end up getting hurt... I am listening to "Toni Braxton, I hate love and i have all these emotions flaring up and all that... Since yesterday night i feel this way... I know you will want to know what triggered it... well, i was on phone with a dear one for hours and i guess our conversation triggered all these emotions.  Can you believe it, i haven't even met this person face to face yet and yet he is triggering all these emotions?  What will happen to me once we meet in person?  This i am asking myself and i don't want to be a prophet of doom for my own relationship but just the thought of it ending one day breaks my heart already....  Why do i have to overthink?  



Anyway, i gotta hold on to the fact that he could be my prince charming... the one i have been waiting for so for now, let me be happy.  I just have to fight off this aweful feeling.... this vulnerability i am feeling right now and all shall be well....

12 Years a Slave......

Well, its been a while since i last put a post here... sometimes i just get caught up in the day to day issues and before i know it a year is gone...  I miss writing as well as reading from some of my favourite bloggers here.  Being a single parent is not easy and especially to teenage girls... i have alot going on right now with my elder girl.  The younger one is still a kid at 8yrs so i got no issues with her, yet.  Anyways, i was reading earlier about our very own hollywood actress now, Ms. Lupita Nyongo... she has starred in a role as a slave alongside the famous Brad Pitt... isn't that awesome?  She has managed to put Kenya at the top.  Who would have thought?...

Here are some of her Red Carpet looks:

The last one is my favourite by far..... Isn't she beautiful?

Well, i honestly cant wait to see the movie "12 Years a Slave" on our screens..... feels great to be able to relate with these great actors....

Have a fabulous day you all......

Oh Lord have sinned!!!

People change.... i used to hear this all the time from my friends and i would brush it off thinking to myself that they are exaggerating things.  I must confess that i have noticed change in me.  Yes, i said it.  I have changed, completely actually.  I want to believe its for the better so stop guessing.  I remember some years back me and my girl friends we were all over town throughout the week.  It didn't matter the day of the week, we were just out there doing what most people in their youth do.  Partying and more partying.  Meeting new friends and growing the circle.  I did so many things, good and bad and for some, i regret.  Before you judge me, just know that i repented and i am sure the Lord forgave me and i am totally different now.

I am happy for who i have become.  I always remember to communicate with the Lord.  In the morning and evening, thanking him for loving me unconditionally and changing me to who i am today.  Even though i know i can never thank him enough, i just do it because no man can do what the Lord has done for me.  I am where i am in life because of him.

The reason why i am writing all these is because of what happened yesterday.  I had everything well planned for. You see there is this guy who has been pestering me to take me out for coffee.  If you have been reading my blog you will notice that i am dating someone.... and its a committed relationship.  No fooling around can be tolerated.  So yesterday i gave in to this guy's request and accepted to meet him for coffee.  All along i knew what i was about to do was wrong but i went through with it anyway.  I met the guy in a restaurant for coffee...  No sooner than the guy got there than i started to grow cold feet.  Like i honestly didn't know what i was doing there... I felt like i was doing something totally wrong and i wanted to run.  I guess the guy noticed and asked if i was ok but i asked him why wouldn't i.  Anyway, i downed my coffee very fast and in the process my boyfie called.  I woke up and went to the washrooms to speak to him but he noticed that the place was very quiet.  I had to immediately go back inside the restaurant.  Its then that i realized that i truly didn't wonna be there and had nothing to say to this guy.  I asked him to excuse me but i had to leave for home.  I must say that he is a clever guy because he didn't say much but thank you for coming...

So i guess it's me and my boyfie now and no more coffee dates or whatever you want to call it...

Come to think of it, i totally and completely love him, why not sit back and enjoy?... Nwho, let me wish everyone a lovely weekend..... see you all on Monday...
 
 

Pints

So yesterday i was picked from work by the boyfriend and his friend.  Guys are funny sometimes my man being one of them.  He totally loves Goat head.  Our first stop was a joint along Jogoo road where they have the delicacy ready.. Being a lady that i am i just opted to sit there and watch as they feasted... i ordered  a bottle of tusker which i have never taken before but was eager to.  Didn't like the taste anyway.  

Somewhere along the way we dropped his friend and so we went home.  I honestly have no idea why time just flies every time i am with him.  Three hours gone as we sat there talking about everything and anything... took some few movies with him and i retired to bed.... Gonna share a photo of him here:

So that's my boyfie... totally love and appreciate him. The other guy (Bending) is his friend.   

Got nothing more to say so am gonna wish everyone a lovely day....