Oh Lord have sinned!!!

People change.... i used to hear this all the time from my friends and i would brush it off thinking to myself that they are exaggerating things.  I must confess that i have noticed change in me.  Yes, i said it.  I have changed, completely actually.  I want to believe its for the better so stop guessing.  I remember some years back me and my girl friends we were all over town throughout the week.  It didn't matter the day of the week, we were just out there doing what most people in their youth do.  Partying and more partying.  Meeting new friends and growing the circle.  I did so many things, good and bad and for some, i regret.  Before you judge me, just know that i repented and i am sure the Lord forgave me and i am totally different now.

I am happy for who i have become.  I always remember to communicate with the Lord.  In the morning and evening, thanking him for loving me unconditionally and changing me to who i am today.  Even though i know i can never thank him enough, i just do it because no man can do what the Lord has done for me.  I am where i am in life because of him.

The reason why i am writing all these is because of what happened yesterday.  I had everything well planned for. You see there is this guy who has been pestering me to take me out for coffee.  If you have been reading my blog you will notice that i am dating someone.... and its a committed relationship.  No fooling around can be tolerated.  So yesterday i gave in to this guy's request and accepted to meet him for coffee.  All along i knew what i was about to do was wrong but i went through with it anyway.  I met the guy in a restaurant for coffee...  No sooner than the guy got there than i started to grow cold feet.  Like i honestly didn't know what i was doing there... I felt like i was doing something totally wrong and i wanted to run.  I guess the guy noticed and asked if i was ok but i asked him why wouldn't i.  Anyway, i downed my coffee very fast and in the process my boyfie called.  I woke up and went to the washrooms to speak to him but he noticed that the place was very quiet.  I had to immediately go back inside the restaurant.  Its then that i realized that i truly didn't wonna be there and had nothing to say to this guy.  I asked him to excuse me but i had to leave for home.  I must say that he is a clever guy because he didn't say much but thank you for coming...

So i guess it's me and my boyfie now and no more coffee dates or whatever you want to call it...

Come to think of it, i totally and completely love him, why not sit back and enjoy?... Nwho, let me wish everyone a lovely weekend..... see you all on Monday...
 
 

Pints

So yesterday i was picked from work by the boyfriend and his friend.  Guys are funny sometimes my man being one of them.  He totally loves Goat head.  Our first stop was a joint along Jogoo road where they have the delicacy ready.. Being a lady that i am i just opted to sit there and watch as they feasted... i ordered  a bottle of tusker which i have never taken before but was eager to.  Didn't like the taste anyway.  

Somewhere along the way we dropped his friend and so we went home.  I honestly have no idea why time just flies every time i am with him.  Three hours gone as we sat there talking about everything and anything... took some few movies with him and i retired to bed.... Gonna share a photo of him here:

So that's my boyfie... totally love and appreciate him. The other guy (Bending) is his friend.   

Got nothing more to say so am gonna wish everyone a lovely day....

Avalanche

Is it wrong to want something so bad you wonna die? What do you do when your own guy who you have dated for only 7 months wants to make love only once/twice a week.  Damnit, my libido is on the high right now so i can't handle starvation... Yes, i said it!!!.  At his age am wondering what makes him not into these things..... and i expected a younger guy to be more active, what the heck?.....

How do some people live, i thought sex makes a relationship stronger...well, according to me.  Lack of it makes me a bitch, a real bad bitch.. I am glad my man has come to know that tiny bit about me...hehe, he tries to relate it to my tribe although i ain't sure that it's got anything to do with that... If i was married probably i would have it five times a week..Damnit, i just cant believe am doing a post on my horniness...or is it the E.L James Book? damn that woman....

The weather is just perfect for cuddling and especially at night... but what's a girl to do with this loneliness even though she is in a relationship.... and what sort of arrangement is this anyway...

Anyway, that aside.  Lately have been questioning my sexuality alot.  I mean, i know am straight but at the back of my mind i wonna fool around with girls... am i suffering from mid life crisis or something... it's all in my mind and even though i am completely, madly, insanely in love with someone, all these funny images appear and i want to in it... not sure what brought that up.... hope its just a fantasy and it goes away faster than Kim K's wedding to Kris..tihihi..

This coming weekend we are headed to the beautiful Nanyuki town for a weekend getaway with my boyfie... I am so looking forward to it.  Hope i take many pictures to share with you all.... otherwise let me wish everyone a beautiful day....

"Falling in love is like an avalanche where you have to run for your life." -John, age 9

Back with a bang!!

Wow, since how long again? Its been two years since i last posted here... how time flies.  I don't really have an idea of what actually happened for me to loose interest in writing/ranting... probably i got overwhelmed by things and just couldn't bring myself to spare a minute to post.  Well, i am back and ready to share my dirty little secrets with the world, again.  I must admit that it feels pretty awesome after i have penned down whatever itis bothering me at any particular moment.  I find it pretty hard to trust people in real life for me to share my worries with them.  They eventually judge you and i hate being judged.  So, to avoid such mind boggling things like gossip why not let it all out here, where you can have only people you have met online drop in their two cents of advise free of charge...

Life has treated me fairly for the last two years so i can't actually complain much.  There has been ups and downs but isn't that life?  I understand that there are people with major issues to deal with in this life so what i do is thank God first for providing me with the basics of life.  I mean i got a roof over my head, food, clothing ecetra ecetra...I am happy actually.  He has also given me a loving, caring and an adorable man.  Except that he can really be a pain in the ass at times but nwho, that i can deal with..  He takes me into places i didn't know of and when that happens, its just heavenly... what else is a girl to ask for?  He is my night in shinning amour... hehe... I guess what am trying to say here is that i am in love...

I guess that when one is in love, nothing else matters.  Things just fall into place... my only wish is that the feeling lasts forever...

Well, let me wish you all a lovely week ahead and hope to see you in these hallways more oftenly.... adios amigos!!

Yours,
The one in love..... (East Africa)... <3 span="span">